As you know, last October our Little Miss T joined the world and made our hearts swell to a size we never knew existed. Since then, my private Instagram feed has changed from cake, cats and cups of tea to nothing but Little Miss T (and the odd cake!). If you follow my confessionsofatryhard Insta page then you will also know that I’ve been trying to capture the humour in the frustrating moments too!
A major frustration at the moment is that my wonderful iPhoneSE with oodles of memory is FULL!!! In order to capture that special giggle on camera I have to delete about 50 pictures and by then the moment has passed- agggghhhh! It got to the point the other day that I couldn’t access emails on my phone because it just didn’t have the brain power to run the app! Fortunately, I found the time to plug said phone into the computer and download the 16,137 photos (!) that were clogging up the poor phones memory and things have been a lot smoother since, thank goodness!
I just can’t help it though….the time is flying by so very quickly and I just want to capture all of those ‘nothing’ moments before it’s too late. Little Miss T has changed into a whole different person before our very eyes these past 10 months and I cherish every moment I have with her.
Neither Mr T or I can profess to be great photographers or lovers of being in front of the camera so when she was 2 months old we decided that we would like some professional photos of the 3 of us taken so that we could look back and not cringe too much! We didn’t really fancy any of the ‘cocoon’ type ones that seem to be popular at the moment (no offence!) and opted for very natural and relaxed look instead. A local photographer, Bethany Sunners, whose work I had long admired through Facebook, had space and we fell in love with the moments she captured for us.However, by 8 months old LMT had changed so much that we wanted to capture this stage of gorgeous ‘not a new born, not a toddler-ness’ too and, again, we turned to the ever lovely Beth. This time it was just LMT in front of the camera and she shone! Her cubby cheeks and gappy teeth caught our hearts and squeezed them tight all over again and I love that we got to capture her little serious poses on film too!
I’ll soon be back to work and I am forever grateful of the amazing times I’ve got to spend with my girl but I am also desperately sad that they are coming to an end. As my return to work fast approaches I am trying to keep a positive mindset and not let the black clouds ruin our last few weeks of lazy mornings and drawn out lunches. I’ve tried to do some special things that we have enjoyed and might not have the time for in the future. I want to soak up the ‘us’ bubble that we’ve created. So this week LMT again stepped (or shuffled!) in front of Beth’s lens but this time she was accompanied by me! We had a beautiful ‘Mummy & Me’ session outside by the river- it was a glorious hour filled with lots of cute cuddles and giggle. Don’t get me wrong, as you’ve already read, I’ve millions of pics of LMT either on her own, with her daddy or random selfies with me in too but this shoot was special. When Beth asked, I jumped at the chance and we now have some stunning pictures that capture the special bond between me and my girl that we’ve lovely and carefully nurtured over the past 10 months. We’ll never get so much time together again just her and me and that’s a sad thought to lament but I’ve loved every second of it- highs and lows, and I can’t wait to keep capturing and watching my amazing, strong-willed and giggly girl grow and tackle the challenges and fun times ahead.
I don’t know about you, but I honestly think that us mums are so often the ones capturing the memories that we are left out of the pictures. As someone who is tackling being a mum without a mum, I know it’s definitely true that sometimes we have to put the camera down and remember to actually be in the moment but there is something truly special about looking back at those moments that have gone forever. Please trust me, if you get the chance to have a ‘Mummy & Me ‘ style shoot, go for it! I’m not a lover of being in front of the lens but I didn’t care, I focused on my girl and had fun- it was magical.
Until next time,
Mrs T Xx